Thursday, May 4, 2017

IWSG: What If I'm Never Good Enough?

The IWSG is a community where writers can share their fears and insecurities about the writing life. To learn more, check out their website here.

I'm in the process of revising the best book I've ever written so far (at least I think so, my critique partners haven't weighed in yet, lol). My hopes for this book are high, and I think if I'm ever going to get my foot in the door, it will be with this one. 

But I can't help but worry that no matter how much I work to better my craft, or years that I pour into this passion, I'll always fall just short. That the requests will always then end up being a no, and I'll never be agented. 

Then I worry that if I ever do get that magical creature, I'll be doomed to never sell. How disheartening would it be to complete one of the steps, but then never be able to cross that final hurdle? 

I'll also admit, I've been writing for nine years, and the question of how much longer will it be before I get my break, is one that I often ruminate on. So these are just worries that plague me at times. You know, the 'but am I truly good enough' variety you throw out there into the universe. =)

But despite all the doom & gloom of the above, I'm quite happy w/how my writing is going at the moment. I've started getting up in the morning, and this new routine is working quite well for me. I can really focus, and I look forward to writing now. And the cup of hot vanilla tea with seven spoonfuls of sugar I make every morning...